Saturday, August 23, 2014

莫名的很想写部落格 很像写下无法用语言表示的尴尬
是不是大家都在忙着 都已经在各自的事业里打拼 为未来奋斗
我想也是 毕竟我们已经不在是少年 由爸妈来照顾 不需要去想
我已经长大了 帮助家人分担责任已经属于我的分内事

这是我在美国的第三个暑假
真的好像小学生时代写作文这样
《时间不知不觉的流逝 转眼间3年了》
我在美国过了第三次的生日 24岁了

看到很多东西 学到很多东西 突然间也觉得很迷茫
或许 每个人的成长过程中 总会有些时候迷茫了一下
不过 提醒自己 告诉自己 未来想要的是什么 你就会开始继续奋斗
不过暑假工回来,我开始很迷茫
这个暑假 我真的是彻底的失败
从以前的业绩 到现在的业绩 真的是惨不忍睹
不过唯一我学到的是 朋友们之间真的很难得的友情 那种互相扶持的情况 只有在这个暑假看到
同样的也看到社会的现实 但你没有表现的时候 你的上司就已经把你视若无睹
好像你什么都没有付出过 我在乎别人的眼光
所以,我觉得这次的失败告诉我 未来不能够让这样的事发生。

卖书卖了三年了 完成了那个所谓的Professional Certificate.
卖书也卖了三年了 也就已经认识了三年了
三年了,长不长短不短
换来的是一句 忘记我吧 是的 我很努力
因为你 我坚持 却放走了很多机会
我不难过 难过的是 自己的坚持

我想给未来的自己一句话
有时候不是坚持就会有结果
不过,不要放弃。
我们都长大了,好好加油
为自己,也为身边你所爱的人

Blessed enough to be 24th.

There are my Varsity Family. 

Three years, My Best co-worker


My Best Girls

Our family picture


 Pictures tell a thousand word. I love you guys and thanks for being with me throughout the bookfield.




Friday, October 18, 2013

Once in a while

23 years old, senior in Chemical Engineering.
24 years old, I am graduate as Chemical Engineer.
25 years onward....How's life will be?

For the past 23 years, I am blessed enough to have my family supported me.
My mum, the woman that i admired the most.
I love her, she did everything for the family, just want us to be success.
I can never know what is that mean by unselfish love, until i really realized that from my mum.
Giving without expect anything in return.
One of the things that i can never accomplish yet so far.

In life, there are always full of choices.
we filter choice, pick the best out of it, in order to fulfill what we want.
Life in America is never easy;
Mum asked me, did u ever regret for coming to US?
I said no. Its pretty adventurous, but its tiring.
Ever since i joined book business, it make me realize and understand more about myself.
One very important point of book business, it helps me a lot financially.
Thanks to all the generous soul outside in the world that helped me along the journey, which is my customers.
Its been a while, i sponsored my own living expenses unless i really could not afford it then i will talk to mum. But thanks god, i didnt get much funding except the tuition fee from family and ever since the last 3k from Grandma since June 2013.

Another thing will be my future plan. Two summers reviewed me a lot. My strengths and weakness.
I realized i hardly can build long term relationship with people as I am not patience enough to wait for people. Therefore, i get lonely very easily and i will get emotional.
A leader need a lot of tolerance. This is what I lack for so far and need to improve.
I am sorry for all my friends back in Msia that sometimes i really neglected them.
I hope everyone of them are doing good in everything.

Making decision for the third summers, either going back selling books or find a technical internship.
Both have its pro and cons.
I am enjoying of finding right prospects,teach them, and see how this programs can help them change.
But having sales experiences only, it doesnt mean i will get a job here in future as i am chemical engineering's students.
In fact, if u ever ask me, what do u like about being a chemical engineer students.
I would say, interested but definitely not in a long run, i wont want to do it for the rest of my life.
I want to start my own business in the future, but how to do it?
I am like a baby crawl on the floor, trying to learn how to stand up without the helps of others.
But i know, when there is a will, there is a way.
So, i decided go back and form my triple crown.
Shared and teaches them, giving without expect anything in return.
And you will know, you can do something.
Self confident cannot be bought, it comes through accomplishment.

Last, relationship wise.
Sometimes, when u want something, u aint gonna get it.
When u dont want something, it comes and u became obligated.
Things get worse when u involved yourself more and more.
I though the angel is here, eventually it was a dream.
Hopefully, sometimes later, i will have my guardian angel come and rescue me out of this.
because i have no courage yet to say Bye.

Major events to end my 2013.
-Banquet of Varsity.
-Thanksgiving trip to Texas.
-Dec 15th, I am coming home. ( I am gonna hug every single one)


Enjoy Life.
Treat people in a way that you want to be treated.

Love,
Lorraine