Irony

down with many reasons.

Just wonder when u re satisfied with everything, troubles wont come to u;thats y u feel happy.

But when u unsatisfied with everything, even a small little thing can spoil your mood to be unhappy. everything will just come.

What an irony!!!!

Life for me.

Life is fragile.

Life is precious.

Life is challenges.

Life is Difficult.

Life is Awesome.

TIME would not stop just because of you.

No matter how many challenges u are facing right now, remember that life still go on!!

你好吗？

回到家的这个星期里，有点闷。

不知道应该做些什么。。

家里也没什么特别需要我做的，因为妈妈是超人。

我只帮忙了一些些让他能够休息下下。

最近的天也一直下雨，天气也一直忽冷忽热。

可是我纳闷，为什么雨后天晴的天空里没有看到我想要看到的彩虹。

是我的期望太高了吗？为什么换来的是失望。

是不是每件事都不能放太高的期望，因为最后都会失望。

昨天觉得好讨厌自己的头发，我去剪了头发。

今天却更不喜欢，因为很翘。

还是喜欢以前的多一点，因为比较自然。。

还是慢慢的等它长吧。。

至于你。。

我只想告诉你。

我很想你。

~~Holiday~~

放假咯，很开心能够回家跟家人在一起;伤心的是不能看到你和怕回去成绩是烂到不行.

其实，我很不想知道成绩，因为我没把握,失望的心重的不行.

嗨,但是,日子还是要造过。

回来的前一天，去了sunway一趟，看了电影;skyline.

还不错的电影，不过为什么现在的电影人都要这么厉害赚钱?

还给我来续集. 到时候第二部出的时候,如果没人提醒的话,我肯定会忘了我看过第一部. 然后,我又不知道结局了.

当时还有一Christmas Charity event, 当中，我最敬佩的就是站在里面的模特儿，一动也不动的站在那儿让人拍照。艺术家真的很伟大。。敬佩敬佩。。

不过,很高兴的是可以跟你一起去,虽然跟浪漫还画不上等号,（其实我对浪漫的定义是什么我也不知道）可是很好玩。。哈哈。。不过还是很谢谢你陪我去啦.谢谢你陪我吃东西逛街，谢谢你陪我一起搭巴士回来，不过害你破产了,不过我也破产了哦.哈哈..

还真的不能一直出去玩,因为没什么钱可以花.

最近发现我也不会自己买衣服了, 难道我的青春就怎样黯淡无光了?

呸呸..不行..我才刚开始2字头..不可以变antie...没有钱还真的不行..哈哈..

想到过后要去旅行头都大了,要去那儿找钱? 自怪自己当初太过冲动了,尽然去报名.

不过是在妈妈的允许下才报的名.但是,现在真的后悔到不行,只希望那会是一段有回忆且学的到东西的旅程.

回到家的第一天，我六点起身就陪妈妈去巴刹。

一打开门，冷冷的空气迎面而来，好凉哦。

只有在早晨才有这样的空气，希望未来的每一天都会是好天气。

Global warming 停止吧。。

我爱大自然。。

Cal 2

I screwed up my cal 2 paper.

Is really sad and until now i still cant accept the truth..

I lose my confident and i dun know what to do.

U u and u tell me that nvm, u already did ur best.

The fact is am I really do my best?

I dun know..

I just feel insecure coz i am not familiar with that question plus not enough time.

Is that correct that i was prepared but not enough?

I need someone to talk to but.......

I want to sleep but cant...

I want to go exercise but nobody to go with me....

I am really exhausted..

I am sorry Mum...

I am sorry Mr Chan,

I thought I should be able to score with a pretty result.

Is my fault for not doing it properly..

Is my fault...

Thx Kah keng for telling me,

if u never fail , u will never survive.

I hope that is truth.

Thx for your advise.

But let me emo for a while...

I cant smile now...

Tired~

eventually neither surprise nor happiness

is final~~

tired tired tired~~~

=( =( =( =(

无名

考试要到了，但是我还是想写，就让我有点寄托吧。。

最近，心情都在低落中度过。。

原因就不祥。。

压力吗？ 还是借口？ 哈哈。。

我的情绪起伏很大，

我可以很开心，同时又掉到最低点。

讨厌自己的情绪，因为有时候真的好辛苦，

明明没事，想着想着就变有事了。

哈哈。。

来到这里差不多五个月多了。

最大的不同应该是遇到了他吧。。

明天就是第二个月了。。

只觉得自己比以前还要幼稚。。

处理事情的方式连我都想嘲笑自己。。

做什么事都好都想引起他的注意。。

可以因为他的一句话，认为他不在乎，

动不动就生闷气。。

其实，我很讨厌很讨厌这样的自己。。

爱情原本就是两方面来经营的，

或许我真的太急，太过分了。

又或许，我猜不透你的心。。

似乎担心，这一刻不见了，下一秒就不会再出现，

你呢？

我想你也应该很累吧。。

对不起，辛苦你了，但是，

赖瑞杰先生，很高兴认识你。。

希望我们能更了解彼此。。

至于友情方面，

我还是一样，都数都是一个人。。

没有一群死党。。

羡慕那些有一群好朋友的人，

一起经历喜怒哀乐，

一切的一切都会是日后的回忆。。

突然间想起你说的自由，或许带来的就是这一切回忆吧？

其实，

我讨厌寂寞，讨厌被忽略，更讨厌格格不入。。

一个人没有不好，只是不能太长的时间都是这样。。

我还是想往群体生活，

虽然有时候，我比较奇怪，因为出门出道一半，我又想回去了。。

真的很奇怪。。

虽然，我的性格有时候很奇怪，爱说话了些，爱开玩笑，直接了一些，

但是，我没有恶意。。

只是想跟你们做朋友。。

有话题的朋友。。

来到这里，我变成了老人，

因为年纪比一般同学来的大，

但是，年纪大并不代表成熟。。

因为遇到的人之中，有些比我还懂事，成熟。。

所以，人有千百万种，我，只是其中一种。。

考完试后，如果没有节目的话，我就要回家咯。。

原本期待的一个短短的旅行也成了泡影。。

希望还有机会与你同行。。

星期四过后还在考试的朋友们，大家要加油咯。。

可能星期四，如果没有节目的话，我就回家了。。

我们就一起加油吧。。

朋友们，很高兴认识你们，

Thanks for walking into my life.

思念~~

压抑到快窒息的我因为妈妈的一通电话。

觉得解压了不少。听到妈妈的声音突然间有股释怀的感觉。

我好想回家。。

家里的大大小小，我好想你们。。。

FML

Can someone please tell me that final is not on next week. However, It indeed is on next week!

Faded up with the lousy coursework marks for STA and REL and dun know with Cal 2 yet. If I want to get an A- I need to get at least 83 /100 which not seemed to be impossible. But must have 200 percent effort on it.

What am I supposed to do?

For STA, i was incredible disappointed with myself as I thought I should be able to score at least 50 and above.

For REL, I can get 50 in the first place but two major reasons that screwed up the marks.

First, The Bahai presentation slide, ( Malaysian Bahai Community is in my laptop right now!!!)

Damn faded up and angry!!! *uc*...

Second, is the test 2!!!! Screw u ONG YUN SHUNG!!!

After today Cal 2 class, I am damn freaking tired. Dun ever tell me working is more stress that this kind of situation coz I dun want to know. The only thing that I know is that stress is by my side. CAN U PLEASE GO AWAY? Mr/Mrs/Ms stress?

What to do by the time I get my result online? Change major? Drop course? Hang myself? Smile happily ? wasting my time? Working? ....................

Future???? FML!!!!

下雨天

坐在书桌前，我没有心情温书，

小病了一下，我变得慵懒。

看着外面下着大雨，我好想出去淋雨。。

让大雨打在我身上，那种感觉应该很不错。

因为下雨天，想起了《下雨天》这首歌。。

下雨天了怎么办 我好想你 不敢打给你 我找不到原因 什么失眠的声音 变得好熟悉 沉默的场景  做你的代替 陪我听雨滴  期待让人越来越沉迷 谁和我一样 等不到他的谁 爱上你我总在学会 寂寞的滋味 一个人撑伞  一个人擦泪 一个人好累  怎样的雨  怎样的夜 怎样的我能让你更想念 雨要多大 天要多黑  才能够有你的体贴  其实  没有我你分不清那些 彻别  接近还能多一些 别说你会难过 别说你想改变 被爱的人不用道歉

很喜欢的一首歌，歌词也很美。。

你知道吗，我想起了你。。

想起了以前我们一起用里面的歌词来玩无聊的讯息。。

可笑但却很开心。。

好久没联络了，

你还好吗？

你要幸福哦。=)

反胃。。

多两个星期就考试了。。

我还在努力的想把一切都复习好来。。

可是今天我有点力不从心。。

因为我有点病了。。

要吐，吐不出。。

反胃的让我很辛苦。。

我没有一丝丝的伪装。。

我想念我妈妈。。

但是我不会打给她。。

因为我怕我会哭。。

不敢想象两年后在外国时，生病了该怎样。。

所以今天就是训练自己的日子。。

忍着，不说。。明天就会好了。。

一定要坚强！！

Study Cal 2, Study REL 200, Study STA, Study.........

I need a break.......

Time

Hard to make choices btw this and that yet I need to make choices.

Let make the things simple. I shall set this as' A'. and set that as 'B'.

A is the things that I agreed in the first place.

B is the thing that come afterwards.

Finally, I have come to a decision that I choose B. The reason that I choose B is maybe I prefer to work with the team's member that I know. In A, Most of the people that I dun know but I know I can work with strangers but work with the person u know is better than strangers izit?

After I make my decision, the second problem comes. The problem is I care for what others think about me. At first, they didnt agreed she to join but now I joined. I dun know what will they say and after the event, I wanna to know them more to hang out with them. But, always, I still feel like I didnt really join them. What is the problem that I cant join them? Age? Commitment? or etc... I dun know...

For next year onwards, from what I plan now, I will busy like hell...Semester 1, two three events for me plus 3 or 4 subjects are waiting for me.

At this moment, my lost my confidence.

I dun know I still manage to conquer it or not.

However, I wish too. I wish I can handle it.

Arrhhh....Give me T.I.M.E..!!!

我要读书了。。

烦人的女人病让我心情郁闷。。

郁闷到没办法专心做功课。。

回想起过去的那个月。。

好多的event让我忙得喘不过气。。

但是我却玩得很开心。。

但是开心之余，自然会有它的后果。

那就是觉得自己变得比平常爱玩了些。。

少了一些读书的干劲。。

会觉得读书好累。。

如果只活在event的世界不是很好吗？

但是。。现实终归现实。。

回到了现实的世界，我很彷徨。。

彷徨我要的东西在哪里。。

彷徨这一切的一切是不是我要的。。

嗨。想了又想。。始终找不到那个点。。

更严重的事，就在event过后的那天，

我的考试成绩完全跌出我的预算之外。。

我傻眼。。

心理有好多的问号想问自己。。

你到底这么了。。

你来这里的目的到底是读书还是玩？

我没有责怪任何人任何事。。

因为是我自己的自以为是让我以为我能做的很好。。

我羡慕那个半路离席就为了考试的人。。

因为至少他不会有我这种失落感。。

我只想告诉自己。。

明年不能接这么多的event来让自己这么忙。。

除非能保证你有哪个心来告诉自己我一定会读书。。！！！

我。。要。。。读。。。书。。。了。。

Goodbye to EMO...ing...

原来沟通是这么的重要。。
它。让我们更了解彼此。
它。让我们对于未来更能跨出一大步。。
它。让我们越过心理的那道墙。。
它。让我们更加的珍惜彼此。。
我想大声跟你说。。
宝贝。。
我也爱你哦。。=)

FInally I can recover back from my emo's mood.
Is been a long time I didnt feel so emo..
and is hard and tough to stay in emo's mood.
I hate myself to be emo and keep thinking about negative thing.
I love to smile and I love to TALK.
I admit I am noisy and KPC.
For certain people think I am crazy and childish,
And indeed I care about what they think about me.
But this only happen when I care about you
only i will talk to you
if not,
Who Cares!!
p.s: Thanks Evelyn , Gilbert, Ferng, Jojo to accompany me to finish the ice-cream. Haha..
Sorry to let u guys see my emo face.
I will try to hide my emo face as long as possible=)
Thx Guys=)

傻瓜跟冰淇凌的故事

Part1
今天是31号，baskin robbin 有31 % 大减价。。..
Part2
一个傻瓜跟她的男朋友有了误会。。
以为误会可以在见到面的时候结束。。
傻瓜很开心的驾了车回到了一个属于他们认识的地方。。
傻瓜以为明天他有八点的课。。
所以很急的想去找他，和他见下面一起吃冰淇凌就回来。。想让他早点休息。。
可是，意外还是发生了。。
他出去了哦。。
傻瓜拿着冰淇凌。。心里很失落。。
他还说明天再见面哦。。
因为他在外面。。
傻瓜很想知道什么事发生哦。。
因为如果是很重要的事。。
傻瓜完全能体谅。。
如果不是很重要的话。。
傻瓜会生气。。
现在傻瓜在想着。。
ice-cream该这么办呢。。
哈哈。
傻瓜告诉自己。。
她很坚强。。

Conversation with her

This is a busy month for me..here u goes for my schedule on Oct 2010.
Weekend 1: Went to bonding trip in Genting with AUP's club.. it was fun and enjoyable..gave me a chance to know u guys better=)
Weekend 2: Rendering service in Orphanage Home and Old Folks Home...it was a very special event for me bcz I was a program master in that event.
Weekend 3: I went for LTC training in Bukit Tinggi Selesa Resort. An nice outing and opportunity for me to know other club's leaders in a better way.
Weekend 4: Preparation for Halloween Night-The Fright Dome in sport hall. To be frankly, I knew my club's committee even better and helpers too=)
Weekend 5: Finally is the time for me to come back home. My Mummy b'day is on tomorrow.=)

Along the journey from Nilai to Home, I was chat a lot with her. She is a quite capable girl and she dont like people say she is 'strong'. She is just responsible in many way. I like the way she talk and do and I realized that we have some common place.
To her: I am glad that u know what u want in future. Wish u the best in your great great future=) I hope that we can be partner and work together. Look forward for that. Cheer=）

To you:我不喜欢无理取闹，我很抱歉让你认为我无礼取闹。。我只想说我珍惜我们之间的关系，希望能够一直维持下去。。只希望我们都不会轻易放弃。。我也不想成为你的累赘。。更不会成为你的累赘。。

First time,first experience

For the past 20 years, I have been to Genting for many times with my family.Every time we spent our time to watch movie instead of playing outdoor and indoor game. Movie itself is more interesting compare with other things in our perceptions.
However, on October 2,2010, I hanged out with my club's committees to Genting for our 'surveying' . That was my first time to hang out with them and it was an awesome trip because we are enjoy the moment that we spent together.
Recall back to the Friday night before we go Genting, our OC, evelyn sent us a message to warn us to be punctual. I was laughing while watching the message, the content was funny yet interesting. ***Bitches of Evelyn side***wakaka~~
However, she was the one who came late and did not get any punishment.Haha.
To cut the story short, I would not talk about the journey but the games that we played. We went for many games and even thought for certain games we need to wait for a long time but we still patiently wait for our turn. The same procedure goes until the end of the day.Everyone was happy even thought we were running in a rainy day.
We reached INTI around 10pm and went for our 'supper' and 'dinner' together. I was so regret to eat the noodles because I gained more fat again..>.<'
Whatever, I love to hang out with u guys. Cant wait for our Summer Beach Team, waiting for all of u ya=)...Cheers=)
A special Genting moment with me, Evelyn, Gilbert, Catherine, De wei, Ken, Guang yi, Shavin, Ferng, Tze Yao, Enthel, Graham, Hy Lim.
p/s: The person including, me, Evelyn Wong, Gillbert , Guang Yi, Ken, Enthel, Graham, Ferng, De wei, Shavin, Hengyi, Catherine, Tze Yao.

Busy week

Writing a short diary supposed to be the things I need to do every night.However, due to my poor English standard, and laziness, i failed to update my diary every night. But I will still promise myself to update whenever I am free.
Talking about this week, which is a busy week for me, as I involved myself in Rendering service event,a charity event which is quite meaningful and also my Calculus test 1.In this event, I am a Program Master and I hope my program flow can run as smooth as possible and I wish to gain more experiences. As for Cal 1, I think I did wrong for my differentiation part as I forgot certain rules. It so horrible..arrh!! I hope my result wont so bad on this coming friday and I do hope can get 40/50 for that. Anyway, is time to move forward again even thought it was sucks.
Haiz...Good night and tmrrw will be a brand new day.

p.s: I wish I can be a linguistic expert to improve my English standard.

惊喜

今年的中秋节过得特别有意义，我跟班上的九位同学一起吃火锅，提灯笼。异常的开心。好久已经没有这种感觉了，来到了这个环境，就一直认为很贵很无奈，友情是一个让我觉得呆在这是有价值的。希望大家的中秋节也是一样的开心哦。
至于第二个惊喜，对我来说，我不知道是好事还是坏事，因为有个女孩结束了三年多的单身之旅，走向了两个人的世界。那个男孩，没什么特别，一开始，真的没什么感觉。久了以后，就觉得他是个不错的人，或许值得考虑考虑，只不过，他傻傻的，不晓得女孩在想什么，终于有一天那个女孩按奈不住，终于告诉他她的想法。结束了谈话，女孩莫名的留下了眼泪。女孩也不明白那个眼泪真真的意义。过后，就在中秋节的这个晚上，他表白了。女孩傻傻的看着他，心里莫名的兴奋，心里感觉甜甜的。就这样，他们开始了他们的恋情。女孩想说，她不再乎是不是可以走到最后，但是他会很小心的守护这段得来不易的爱情，因为她知道男孩真的很想好好保护她。女孩也觉得男孩应该得到同样的爱。
女孩在上课时，老师分享了一些很可爱但有趣的东西，老师说不能什么都说‘是你的就是你的，跑也跑不掉，没有行动那里来的结果’。
老师很可爱的一番话，警惕着女孩，不管未来会发生什么事，至少他们都努力过，遗憾也不会来的这么深。
突然想说，
在对的时间遇上对的人，是种幸福。
在对的时间遇上错的人，是种悲哀。
在错的时间遇上对的人，是种遗憾。
在错的时间遇上错的人，是不应该。

Happy holidays 8.9.2010~ 11.9.2010

In a twinkling of an eye, my three days two nights Penang and Cameron Highlands's trips had officially finished. It is an awesome' s trips because of two things, First,this is the first time I went to Penang and Cameron with my family. Secondly, I ate a lot of delicious and cheap foods which cannot be found over here. Can you imagine that RM 1.70 for juchongfan and Fruit Rojak for us.
In the first day, we departure from Benut at 8.30 am and along the way to Genting Highlands. The most frustated matter to me is the procedure to check in is extremely slow and make us wait for three hours. I am extremely unsatisfied with their service because I never been wait for so long to check in. However, my dad did win some money from the gambling so lets pretend they deal with us.hehe=).
After stayed a night in First World hotel, we departure again to our next destination, Penang. We arrived there at around noon time and check in to our resort named Sarifa Country Club located in Butterworth near to Sunway Carnival Mall. The environment is consider not bad and the rate for the room is also consider cheaper compared to other resort. Our room is D 29 and occupied with two rooms, one dining hall, and one mini kitchen. After settle down, we went for dinner with my dad's friends. They treated us to eat seafood and cost 400+ for that meals. Thank you to Uncle and Anty.After dinner, we drove to Penang Island and uncle brought us to 'Guan Zai Jiao', a place which is full of delicious foods. Uncle brought us to eat Fruit Rojak and we all ate until our stomach almost burst but we are still very happy.
On the next day, we went to Penang Island for sure, the first destination is Snake Temple, a place named snake but not much snake over there. After that, we went to kek lok shi temple, located in Ayer Hitam, Penang. We also went to try the best asam laksa in penang and indeed is delicious. And same goes for the trips.
On the third days, we went to Cameron Highlands, is tiring but enjoying. There is only one sad things happen which is some of the unpopular person appear in front of us like pigs...there are so disgusting and repugnant. They are the unpopular person ever and ever. I just hope that my dad can come back faster and faster.
Love Peace...Love my famiy...

World Religion Test.

And another one hour I will be in class to have my world religion test, even thought is 20 MCQs, i still worried that i cant do well coz one question carry too heavy marks..
Shouldnt you stop to question yourself just for a while?
Shouldnt you start to have positive thinking?
Shouldnt u think about ur parents who pay so much fees for you to study?
U are not doing alone but everyone accompany u to do this.
Believe yourself, Ong Yun SHung, you should be able to do this coz u re YOu.

Visiting to Orphanage home and Old Folks Home

I am involved myself into an event which called Rendering service, is something like charity works. Today was the first time to have a pre-visit to the Homes. We had been to two places which is Children's Home and Old Folks Homes.
Once I get into the Old Folks Home, I didnt really brave enough to look at their eyes coz i dun want them to misinterpret that I am looking down or sympathy to them. I just no dare to look at their eyes coz it is quite awkward. However, all the old people there are quite friendly and kind, seemed like easy to talk with them. If I become an old woman, will my children bring me to the old folks as well? A question to myself.
After all the discussion with the PIC, we went to the next Home, which is the Children Homes.When we get there, all of the children were sitting on the floor and have their own activities. Some of the boys are playing among each other. The scene refreshed me of the movie, Slumdog millionaires, which had almost the same scenario.
The PIC even told us that most of them are Indians because Malays had their own gov to take care of them, and Chinese kids are more fortunate to have parents. Thats why most of the orphanage in that Home are Indians. After 30 minutes pre-visit, we went back to INTI.
The children over there were either abused by their parents or drug addicted parents.
Environment is a issues that will affect children's development. I am lucky enough to have a happy family and parents and so so many people who love me and care about me.
So, as much as I can do is to share my love to them.Hope that they can have a happy life too~~

感谢你。。

你知道吗，大家都在帮你说话哦。哈哈。
想说~~
感谢你的生日惊喜。
感谢你的薏米水。
感谢你的面包。
感谢你的枇杷膏。
感谢你的出现。
不知道未来会是怎样。
至少现在的生活很开心。

A special Thanks note to all of you~~

This is a note that i want to type during my 20's birthday but I fail to do so. I wish to write down my feeling so that I can easily remember what exactly happened during my 20's birthday.I am pretty sure I want to remember that moment for the rest of my life. That moment gave me such a touching feeling with cannot express with words. Even thought I am not really know how to use bombastic words nor fantastic words, I want to write down, still...
Recall back that day, I dun know yours had prepare such a surprise for me coz we only know each other in a short time and I dun expect that anyone of u will celebrate for me. What I expect was having a meal with you guys. Before 12am of August 10, my classmates asked me out and sang Birthday song for me. They are nice even thought I did not hanged out with them all the time. After the first part of the celebration, here yours surprises come.
When I reached there, I was shocked by everything because there are so many of them over there and U squeezed on the floor to arrange the candles for me. I really really dun know what to say as I was shocked. But thousand and thousand of Thank You I want to tell you~~~
Thank you to all of u who came to celebrate my Birthday.
Especially Celia, Angel, Yun Qiu, Rui Jie,Nicholas, Ken, Chong Jin, Angie, Hwee Ying,RObert and Keave.
Thanks for the celebration in MyBox.
Thanks for become my friends.
Thanks for walking into my life.

End of First week

Well,this is the last day for this week and weekend is coming.Over the past 4 days,i realise that Dc Lim is really a experiences,systematic,serious, and humour(sometimes) teacher. I cant admit he is really a nice teacher even thought he dun like to smile.During the English class,he told all of us a lot of things and somehow i felt that he was preparing to let us know what was the reality that we gonna to face later and everything is really true.I still remember in the second class of English class,i really want to cry because everything he said is marked in my heart like the standard of English that we had.I cried not because he scolded or something,is just that the truth was really harden to accept and i really need to blame myself how come my is so weak.Based on this blog,i can realised that there is a lot of grammar mistake.Why do i write blog bcz i want to know where is my standard reach and how much can i improve.So,everyone who are reading this please dun laugh at me or maybe can give me some hints.thx

开课咯

Today is the third day of my AUP program and so far i think quite okay and i just realised over the mountain, there are always people stronger than you. the only thing u can do it to work hard and compare with yourself.

第一篇

2010年5月1号
在2010年的今天我开了这个部落格.目的是想对自己看事情的想法和意见写给自己看.这些日子一来,一直觉得自己很肥,很想减肥却不知道从那里开始.说来说去,还是自己的问题因为自己总在找借口.说到食物,我已经有减少食量了,可是并不是每个人有能力买那些有机材料来煮而且也没有人想我这样多烦恼.我想真的是没有运动吧,运动量太低了.我一定要真的去运动!!运动.我的蜂窝组织也是很多了,一定要想办法减掉.我一定可以变瘦的.我最想跟妈妈道歉,因为常因为这个问题在他面前发脾气.对不起,妈妈.我不想的,我有尽量控制的脾气哦....