Once in a while

23 years old, senior in Chemical Engineering.
24 years old, I am graduate as Chemical Engineer.
25 years onward....How's life will be?

For the past 23 years, I am blessed enough to have my family supported me.
My mum, the woman that i admired the most.
I love her, she did everything for the family, just want us to be success.
I can never know what is that mean by unselfish love, until i really realized that from my mum.
Giving without expect anything in return.
One of the things that i can never accomplish yet so far.

In life, there are always full of choices.
we filter choice, pick the best out of it, in order to fulfill what we want.
Life in America is never easy;
Mum asked me, did u ever regret for coming to US?
I said no. Its pretty adventurous, but its tiring.
Ever since i joined book business, it make me realize and understand more about myself.
One very important point of book business, it helps me a lot financially.
Thanks to all the generous soul outside in the world that helped me along the journey, which is my customers.
Its been a while, i sponsored my own living expenses unless i really could not afford it then i will talk to mum. But thanks god, i didnt get much funding except the tuition fee from family and ever since the last 3k from Grandma since June 2013.

Another thing will be my future plan. Two summers reviewed me a lot. My strengths and weakness.
I realized i hardly can build long term relationship with people as I am not patience enough to wait for people. Therefore, i get lonely very easily and i will get emotional.
A leader need a lot of tolerance. This is what I lack for so far and need to improve.
I am sorry for all my friends back in Msia that sometimes i really neglected them.
I hope everyone of them are doing good in everything.

Making decision for the third summers, either going back selling books or find a technical internship.
Both have its pro and cons.
I am enjoying of finding right prospects,teach them, and see how this programs can help them change.
But having sales experiences only, it doesnt mean i will get a job here in future as i am chemical engineering's students.
In fact, if u ever ask me, what do u like about being a chemical engineer students.
I would say, interested but definitely not in a long run, i wont want to do it for the rest of my life.
I want to start my own business in the future, but how to do it?
I am like a baby crawl on the floor, trying to learn how to stand up without the helps of others.
But i know, when there is a will, there is a way.
So, i decided go back and form my triple crown.
Shared and teaches them, giving without expect anything in return.
And you will know, you can do something.
Self confident cannot be bought, it comes through accomplishment.

Last, relationship wise.
Sometimes, when u want something, u aint gonna get it.
When u dont want something, it comes and u became obligated.
Things get worse when u involved yourself more and more.
I though the angel is here, eventually it was a dream.
Hopefully, sometimes later, i will have my guardian angel come and rescue me out of this.
because i have no courage yet to say Bye.

Major events to end my 2013.
-Banquet of Varsity.
-Thanksgiving trip to Texas.
-Dec 15th, I am coming home. ( I am gonna hug every single one)


Enjoy Life.
Treat people in a way that you want to be treated.

Love,
Lorraine